Maybe I was afraid. Maybe I never tried harder. Maybe I wasn't sure myself. Maybe I thought she would come back to me.
"Ah! All these maybes are driving me insane!"
"There's no point dwelling on the past, boy. Life has to go on. You have to move on. If you stay in the past, you'll never achieve anything in life."
"I know! I know! Don't you think I know? Just let me drown in my sorrows. Just let me be with my misery!"
"No! You're stronger than this. Fight it, fight it boy!"
"......."
Silence. Just my heavy breathing filled the air. The tears have dried. I was calming down. I could see her leaving. I could see her fading away in my mind. I could see her with another man.
"No! Gotta get that out of my mind."
"Help me! God, help me! Anybody! Somebody!"
Just take these memories away.
Just let me sleep, eternally.
(3rd June 2006)
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13 comments:
Did you watch Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind? Maybe that technology is really useful in this kind of situation.
hey! too fast too give up i guess :)
try hard and try again if u really want her :p
my 2ps, just let her go, if she comes back, she's yours. if she doesnt, it was never meant to be. i truly respect/admire u though, you keep on waiting (well it sounds like it). not all men are as loyal as u. but then..like people say..bunga bukan sekuntum.
Letting go is hard but maybe after uve let go ull find a better person, someone who loves u for u :)
Emmm...another try is not a good idea. She had her chances (so many of them!). It's her huge loss anyway..
And you, you WILL find happiness again.. Trust me on this ok..
Dnas,
You know what, if we can develop that technology, we'll be filthy rich! I'm sure everyone has something that they would like to erase.
Diaharris,
I'm a coward ;) I stare failure straight at its face and i retch my guts and soul out. Of course if failure is as pretty as you, then that might be a different story ;)
(okay, I know, that was cheesy, hahah!)
Nachos,
Yup, I know, I know. I'm such a fool, to be believing in something when there is nothing to believe in anymore. You gotta have faith right? But misplaced faith, now that is something else.
Cosmic_gurl,
They told me time will always heal the pain, bring the sun, and drive the rain. But what I get are sunny days and rainy nights.
Hazyr,
Maybe so, maybe so. But maybe happiness is not what I seek. Probably it's happyness. The difference is the y. And I have a y in my name. Make sense? Probably not. Just thinking about it is making me dizzy!
ardy, i'm not in the best position to give any advise on this as my mental health has been compromised. but i understand how you feel, and the only cure for it is to find someone else to love. i know im being simplistic but for me, it works that way! get on with life. macam bagus je kan aku cakap.
Jazz - I agree with you. Find somebody ese. But its not that easy actually to find replacement because before manage to find the 'real' one, you might be called a 'player' ! hmmm...that sounds so familiar.
Jazz,
The solution lays in front of me, yet, it's a matter of choice. Maybe I'm not as brave as I thought I was.
Spena,
I guess I'm in the same boat as you used to be! ;)
spena, being called a player is a compliment what... liberated woman!!! ardy sorry for using your blog as a platform to bit&h with other ppl.. hehehe.. the nachos-effect is contagious.
Jazz,
Spena is a legend amongst us! ;) Heheheh
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