At the edge

It is hard to keep a positive mind when everything around you reeks of negativity. Everywhere you turn, you can sense that things aren’t working out as well as it should have. You might feel like the whole world is going against you, and the odds of you surviving is overwhelmingly small.It’s like luck has finally decided to ditch you and leave you in a messy hole, and all you can rely on is your faith that sooner or later, things will shape up and turn to the better.

Faith, and self-belief. What else can you rely on nowadays? You just need to trust yourself, and to keep going on, instead of giving up. Giving up is so easy. Just drop everything, pull the sheets up, and curl down in bed for days. But you can’t sleep away your problems. You still need to wake up, and once you do, the same problem will still be there, staring at you straight in the face.

Of course, the easiest way out is to commit suicide. Now, that might do the trick, since you do not need to wake up anymore. Hence, the problems and troubles will just lie there waiting for nought, eaten away by time.

But that is a selfish solution. You might get away with it, but what about your loved ones? And the ones who rely on you? And if you think killing yourself is easy, think again. After deciding on the method, you still need to garner enough courage to actually do the act. And you definitely do not want to botch things up, since failed attempts might lead to broken limbs, or worse, mental institution.

That is why it is very important to keep your sanity intact. That is why it is very important to keep a positive mind. And that is what I’m trying to do now, despite this huge workload that has been shoving the back of my mind, rendering me mad with stress and helplessness.

Now, if only I can stop time. That might just do the trick.