The heart of the matter

Quotes from last week's episode:

Meredith: [narrating] In life, only one thing is certain, apart from death and taxes. No matter how hard you try, no matter how good your intentions, you are going to make mistakes. You’re going to hurt people. You’re going to get hurt. And if you ever want to recover... there’s really only one thing you can say.

Meredith: Where would we go?
Derek: Wine country.
Meredith: Wine country sounds like a couples' place.
Derek: Well, there's wine, there's country, and you wouldn't see any of it. We'd be in bed all weekend.
Meredith: Oh, a weekend of sex.
Derek: Now you're paying attention.

Izzie: Callie. Hey. Hi.
Callie: We have to talk.
Izzie: Okay. Um, about?
Callie: George told me.
Izzie: He told you?
Callie: Everything. Cafeteria, noon, you and me. Be there.

Izzie: What did you say?
George: Um, I didn't expect her to forgive me. I expected...rage, uh, bloodshed.
Izzie: No, she's saving all her rage and bloodshed for me. She's gonna kill me in the cafeteria at lunch.
George: No, she wouldn't.
Izzie: She breaks bones for a living, George. She's crazy.
George: No, she's not crazy.
Izzie: Well, she is if she thinks I'm not gonna put up a fight.

Norman: So is he the one you call, uh...McDreamy or, Mc, uh, Sleazy, or Mc, uh, wait a minute, what is it?
Meredith: Norman, we have labs to deliver.
Norman: Yeah.
Meredith: Labs and discharges.
Norman: Uh, this one's being discharged to hospice?
Meredith: When there's nothing else we can do.
Norman: So we have to tell someone they're dying?
Meredith: Don't worry. I'll teach you the protocol.
Norman: McSteamy! He's the one you girls call McSteamy.

Cristina: I'm not a bad resident, am I?
Meredith: Don't ask me. I lost a patient today.
Cristina: Oh, you killed someone?
Meredith: Lost. Literally can't find.
Cristina: Shepherd says I'm selfish and competitive. What the hell is wrong with that? I kick ass. I'm an excellent resident.
Meredith: I'm not. In addition to losing my patient, I also lost my intern. Turned around, he was gone. AWOL.
Cristina: See, what... what is wrong with these interns? We weren't like this.
Meredith: We were great interns.
Cristina: I was great. You were... you were good.

Izzie: What, I'm invisible now?
Alex: What do you want?
Izzie: So you hate me now, too. Well, join the club.
Alex: You and O'Malley? O'Malley!
Izzie: What? What is it that I did that is so horrifying? I fell in love, Alex.
Alex: He's married.
Izzie: Yeah, so? You're carrying a big ol' torch for Ava or Jane Doe or whatever it is that you call her, and she's married. So what gives you the right to judge what I do? Why do you even care?
Alex: You told me you weren't ready yet...after Denny... to be with anyone. And then O'Malley? O'Malley. And then you tell me like I'm one of your chick friends. Come on.

George: Callie...you can't...just forgive me. What I did to you...is unforgivable.
Callie: That's how it works. That's what "I forgive you" means.
George: No, see, I...I think it means you don't forgive me. I...you don't know how to talk to me right now. I mean, look, you don't...you can't even look at me. You're so angry that...I think the only way you can deal with me is to say you forgive me and...what, we pretend it didn't happen?
I...it happened. And you don't forgive me.
Callie: You're right. I don't.

Meredith: You can say anything to me.
Derek: I want to marry you. I want to have kids with you. I want to build us a house.I want to settle down and grow old with you. I want to die when I'm 110 years old in your arms. I don't want 48 uninterrupted hours. I want a lifetime.
(Meredith takes a step back)
Derek: Mm-hmm. Do you see what happens? I say things like that, and you fight the urge to run in the opposite direction. It's okay. I understand. I didn't, but now I do. I do...you're just getting started. And I've been doing this for a long time. Deep down...you're still an intern. And you're not ready.
Meredith: I'm not ready right now. But things could stay the way they are... And I can get ready. I'll get ready.
Derek: Things can stay the way they are. We can still meet in the elevator or the on call room. And maybe you'll be ready. And I'll wait. I'll wait until you're ready.
Meredith: Okay, then.
Derek: Yeah, but what if...what if while I'm waiting I meet someone who is ready to give me what I want from you?
Meredith: What if you do?
Derek: I don't know.

Meredith: [narrating] Forgive and forget. That’s what they say. It’s good advice, but it’s not very practical. When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without forgiveness, old scores are never settled… old wounds never heal. And the most we can hope for, is that one day we’ll be lucky enough to forget.

Let the truth sting

Quotes from last week episode:

Meredith: [narrating] Doctors give patients a number of thing. We give them medicine, we give them advice and, most of the time, we give them our undivided attention. But, by far, the hardest thing you can give a patient is the truth. The truth is hard. The truth is awkward and very often the truth hurts. I mean, people think they want the truth. But do they really?

Meredith: Hey, I just heard. Welcome back.
Alex: Is it true? Really old guy woke up?
Izzie: He has a name.
Charlie: This time tomorrow, you can call me really dead guy.
Izzie: Guys, I don't think Mr. Yost knows who you are.
Charlie: Sure I do. That's Meredith. She and the brain doctor are always running hot and cold. And you're, uh, Alex. You still got a thing for that old patient of yours? I was semi-comatose, blondie. I could still hear you guys.
Izzie: Get a CT, a CBC and chemistries. Your kidneys may be working again, which may be why you woke up. That's good news.
Charlie: Oh, it just means now I got two things to do today, take a pee and die.
Izzie: Nobody's dying.

Mark: Do you ever feel old?
Derek: I'm young. I'm a fetus.
Mark: Nah, I mean you ever feel like there's gonna be a time when new techniques pass you by?
Derek: I'm a genius and a scholar.
Mark: Shut up.
Derek: Meredith isn't telling Cristina about us. And, well, she tells Cristina everything.
Mark: I thought you broke that off.
Derek: I meant to.
Mark: You think she's gonna want to get back together.
Derek: No.
Mark: You think she's gonna grow up and get all whole and...want a relationship.
Derek: I do not.
Mark: You're a bad liar.
Derek: You're old.
Mark: I'm just gettin' started, my friend.

Alex: I saw the whole thing, Yang. You can stop pretending.
Cristina: Oh, I'm not pretending. I'm sad. I'm very sad. Me so sad.
Alex: Maybe I should try it, see if I can get Grey to take my new intern.
Cristina: No. Hey, forget it. Sad is mine. Go find your own pretend emotion.

Cristina: Hey. I heard about really old guy. What's the matter? Couldn't find his LVAD wire?
Izzie: It was a coincidence, and he's still alive.
Cristina: Well, have fun with really old guy. I'm off to do Meredith's hemi-glossectomy.

Charlie: A person wants to die, you let them. It's polite.
Izzie: Not in a hospital, it's not. In a hospital, it's a lawsuit.
Charlie: I don't like you.
Izzie: Really? 'Cause I thought we were BFFs.
Charlie: You know what? Just for that, I'm dying right now.
Izzie: That might make you poop your pants, but it's not gonna make you die.
Charlie: Oh, damn it.

George: Izzie...
Izzie: What? What is there to say, George, I'm a blondie. I'm the other woman. I'm a bad '50s cliché?
George: No, no, no. We're not in this together.
Izzie: Wow. Great. Well, thank you for letting me know.
George: Hey no, no. No. You don't get to be mad here.
Izzie: Seriously? We said...
George: No, no, no, no. There is no "we. " It's just me. I'm the one who has to tell Callie. I'm the one who has to destroy her. This is not about you and me. This is about her and me. I'm ending a marriage to a wonderful woman. Me. I'm the one. It's not you. You... it's not something you just blurt out. It's not. I'll do it. I will do it. You have to back off and let me do it.
Izzie: I'm sorry.

Alex: I'm sorry I unloaded on you, Norman. You know how it is? Heat of the moment.
Bailey: Don't apologize to him.
Alex: What?
Norman: Oh, Dr. Bailey's right. It...
Bailey: Shut up, Norman. I'm not talking to you. He got in your way. He's been doing it all day, and when that happens...when an intern gets in the way of a resident...you're not doing what's best for your patient. Now you almost missed diagnosing that kid today because Norman here thought it was drugs. So don't apologize. He should be yelled at.
Alex: Dr. Bailey... he's as old as the hills.
Bailey: I don't care how old he is, Dr. Karev. He's still an intern, and interns are basically teenagers. We are not hard on them because it's fun. We're hard on them because this is a life-and-death job. They need to learn that. There is a reason why we have a pecking order in a hospital. It saves lives.

Meredith: You're damn right I know, surgery stealer.
Cristina: So, person-who-is-sleeping-with-Derek?
Meredith: How'd you know that?
Cristina: What, you think I'm too fragile to handle your sex life?
Meredith: Well, he did leave you at the altar. And I'm your person.
Cristina: How, by...by "protecting me"? That's not how to be my person. That's not what we do. You know that. I'm dealing. Okay? The best I can. So if you need to take care of someone, you're gonna need to take care of someone else. Okay?
Meredith: Fine. But you owe me a surgery.
Cristina: Yeah, well, you owe me sex details.

Cristina: What are we supposed to say? We didn't even know the guy.
Izzie: We ate lunch in here for a year. The least we can do is say a few kind words about him.
George: Me? He...he didn't snore too loudly...
Meredith: He, um... never complained. And he always took his meds.
Alex: Hardly ever farted.
Meredith: Alex.
Alex: Fine. Uh, he had 12 surgeries this year, and he...he lived through them. That's...that's impressive.
Izzie: Thank you, Alex. Cristina?
Cristina: Uh, I got to practice stuff on him...central lines and IVs...it was good practice.
Izzie: Um...Charlie, the truth is...you were a bastard. You were. You were mean and stubborn and just...a bastard. But you were a bastard who knew what you wanted. And you stuck to your guns and proved that if you want something badly enough, if you're...determined enough and patient enough, eventually it will happen. It will. And that gives me hope, so...thanks for that. Bye-bye, Charlie.

Meredith: [narrating] The truth is painful. Deep down, nobody wants to hear it, especially when it hits close to home. Sometimes we tell the truth because the truth is all we have to give. Sometimes we tell the truth because we need to say it out loud to hear it for ourselves. And sometimes we tell the truth because we just can't help ourselves. Sometimes, we tell them because we owe them at least that much.

Love/Addiction

We are all addicted to something throughout our lives. Be it love, sex, coffee or even booze. And it's never easy to kick the habit once you're in it. So what do you do? How do you kick the addiction?

There first step is by admitting that you have a problem. Because believe me, once you're aware of it, then you'll know what you need to do. Eventually.

Enjoy the quotes!

Meredith: [narrating] In the hospital, we see addiction every day. It's shocking how many kinds of addiction exist. It would be too easy if it were just drugs and booze and cigarettes. I think the hardest part of kicking a habit is wanting to kick it. I mean, we get addicted for a reason, right? Often, too often, things that start out as just a normal part of your life at some point cross the line to obsessive, compulsive, out of control. It's the high we're chasing, the high that makes everything else fade away.

Mark: What's wrong with the chief?
Derek: He's a junkie.
Mark: Him? You're the one who looks all strung out.
Derek: I'm just tired.
Mark: Let me guess. You and Meredith are back together, and you've been up all night doing the horizontal salsa.
Derek: Mambo. Horizontal mambo. And Meredith and I, we're just friends.
Mark: Sexy friends?
Derek: You're like the worst, most juvenile human being I've ever met in my life.
Mark: You know the first step to recovery is admitting you have a problem?
Derek: How many nurses have you slept with this week?
Mark: That's not a problem, man. That's an adventure.

Meredith: Mrs. Burke. What a surprise to see you here. Are you visiting someone?
Jane: You're the maid of honor. Miss Grey.
Meredith: That's me.
Jane: When you stood up in front of Preston's friends and loved ones and you said, "It's over. It's over. It's so over" were you trying to smash the hopes of the best man, or were you just trying to be funny?
Meredith: I...
Jane: Because making light of that situation would be inappropriate. And to use that moment to send a message to your boyfriend... well, that's... selfish. So were you being inappropriate, or were you being selfish?
Meredith: I, uh... am, uh...I apologize for that, Mrs. Mama, ma'am. I'm just gonna go. Okay.
Jane: Miss Grey?
Meredith: Yes, ma'am.
Jane: When you report back to Cristina, would you tell her, please, that I am waiting for her and that I will continue to wait for her?
Meredith: Yes, ma'am.

Cristina: She keeps staring at us.
Meredith: I know.
Cristina: Make her stop.
Meredith: You make her stop.
Cristina: You're her sister.
Meredith: I'm an only child. You're her resident.
Cristina: If you have time to stare, you have time to get me coffee, so move, move, move. Two, stay.
Meredith: Now see? If you could just do that with mama...

George: Mrs. Burke!
Jane: I don't think I know you.
George: I'm George O'Malley. I'm a friend of Burke's. I was Burke's guy.
Jane: Hi, George O'Malley...Burke's friend, Burke's guy. Please sit.
George: I guess I have a minute. You know one time he let me live on his sofa when I had no place else to stay? How is he? Is he...okay?
Jane: He's Preston. He's a gentleman. And so... he doesn't like to talk about it. And I just really don't know what to say to him.
George: Maybe, uh...I don't know. Maybe you can tell him that he dodged a bullet. I mean, marriage is...once you're in, you're in. Burke is smart, you know? He didn't make a mistake. 'Cause it's a mistake that, you know, it's hard to take back. Which, even if you want to take it back, you can't. So you can tell him that.
Jane: Once you're in, you're in. Make sure you have that engraved on your wedding ring when you get married.
George: Oh, I'm already married.
Jane: You're already married? George O'Malley...Burke's friend, Burke's guy...staying in a marriage out of obligation? That's no way to live. That's no way to love. But I think you know that.
George: I do. Sometimes I do.

Derek: He's not returning my phone calls anymore.
Jane: He's doing his best. Do you think...do you think she really loved him...Cristina?
Derek: I...I think she loved him the best that she knew how.
Jane: And that would not have been enough for you either?
Derek: No. It wouldn't have been enough for me either.
Jane: So you would've ended it, too?
Derek: Well... burke and I are...are built differently. He's stronger than I am. He was strong enough to... and, um, we're not built the same.
Jane: Honorable men are all built the same.
Derek: And you think I'm an honorable man?
Jane: Do you know when to walk away? Do you know when not to take less than you deserve? If you do, then you're an honorable man.

Lexie: Um, Dr. Grey...I was wondering, do you know where the thermometers are? 'Cause...
Meredith: Do you really not know where the thermometers are, Lexie? Or are you just looking for an excuse to talk to me?
Lexie: I...
Meredith: Simple question, Lexie. Are you an idiot or a stalker? Okay, that was a mean thing to say. I'm aware of that because I'm generally not a me but I'm a person who just doesn't want to know you. And you are a person who's making that very difficult. So please, just stop making it so difficult for me to not know you. Okay?

Callie: So I take it you still want to talk?
George: Yeah, I do.
Callie: No.
George: No, I...
Callie: No, you don't. George, please. Just...please, please don't say anything. Please. I am asking you as your wife. I am asking you not to say anything. I am asking you to just not. Not tonight. I am your wife. Do this for me?
George: Okay.

Meredith: [narrating] Still, they say you don’t kick the habit until you hit rock bottom, but how do you know when you’re there? Because no matter how badly a thing is hurting us, sometimes letting it go hurts even worse.

A change is gonna come

Things change. People change. The whole world changes. Nothing remains the same. Not for long.

The first episode of the new season was superb, as always. Some old faces left, and more new faces were introduced. Remember those new faces, because some of them will be sleeping with some of those old faces.

Enjoy the quotes!

Meredith: [narrating] In the practice of medicine, change is inevitable. New surgical techniques are created, procedures are updated, levels of expertise increase. Innovation is everything, nothing remains the same for long. We either adapt to change, or ... we get left behind.

Meredith: Have you seen Burke?
Cristina: No. Have you seen Derek?
Meredith: No.
Izzie: Wait, you haven't seen either of them since the wedding?
Meredith and Cristina: Nope.
Izzie: And you're all fine?
Meredith: Yep.
Cristina: Yep.
Izzie: Wow. You're either incredible healthy or completely messed up.

George: I don't respond to being called a number.

Derek: How is Meredith, anyway?
Cristina: Fine.
Derek: She's always fine. That's her problem.
Cristina: We're fine people. We do fine. We're fine.

Mark: I didn't come to Seattle for Addison, I didn't come to Seattle to be chief. I came to Seattle for you, okay? I came to Seattle to get you back... I know I wanna take that back, but now, it's been said..
Derek: Yeah... maybe we should have a drink.
Mark: We could?
Derek: Yeah.... Not today.

Izzie: Don't you see? I'm Bambi. I'm Bambi, George. If anyone in this situation is a sad little cartoon character, it's me. I'm all alone in the forest, all alone in the forest, George. And my mother's been shot by a hunter and where are you? Where the hell are you?
George: I'm on my way to surgery.

Meredith: I...uhm....
Derek: You're not ready for this.
Meredith: No.
Derek: I asked for too much.
Meredith: I think so.
Derek: So, this is it?
Meredith: Yeah.
Derek: We're breaking up?
Meredith: We're breaking up.

Derek: We're broken up.
Meredith: It's done.
[They start kissing]
Derek: Break-up kiss.
Meredith: Break-up kiss.
Derek: Lets have break-up sex.
Meredith: Yeah, lets have break-up sex.

Meredith: [narrating] Change; we don’t like it, we fear it, but we can't stop it from coming. We either adapt to change or we get left behind. And it hurts to grow, anybody who tells you it doesn’t is lying. But heres the truth: the more things change, the more they stay the same. And sometimes, oh, sometimes change is good. Oh, sometimes, change is ... everything.

(The nice song at the ending is called "To build a home" by Cinematic Orchestra)

A fresh season

It has been a long wait, a very long wait. But finally the wait is coming to an end.

Come tomorrow, Season 4 of Grey's Anatomy is debuting on our local screen. Well, that's what the snippets on TV are saying. Saturday - 9.45pm. I might be wrong, since a check through the website yields nothing. It's either they have not updated it yet, or they simply don't care. A tad frustrating, if I must say.

Let's recap what happened in last season's finale. Preston and Christina were getting married, when Burke got jilted and he took it as a sign to leave everything behind. Yes, there will be no more Burke in Season 4.

Meredith and Derek were on the verge of a break-up. Something about Derek meeting a new girl at the bar (which turns out to be Meredith's little sister!). More on that in the show.

George and Izzie were having an affair. Well, Izzie is in love with George, but George is married to Callie. Does George has feelings for Izzie too?

Not to forget, George failed his exam. Will he repeat the whole thing and be an intern again, or is he moving to a new hospital to cool things off with Izzie and gain his wife's trust back?

The race for chief is getting hot, with Addison being told that she is out of the race, hence her departure from the hospital for good. But despair not, for you will see her an hour after the show, in her own show - Private Practice. More on that later.

Derek was offered the post, but he declined. Does that mean the Chief will still be around? Isn't he supposed to quit and be with his wife? Or could Mark be the new chief?

Mark was hoping that Addison would want to be with him, but alas! Addison if off on her new adventure and Mark is left picking up the pieces (and the other nurses).

Alex, well, Alex missed out on the girl that could have been the one. After rejecting Addison, he rejected Rebecca Pope (a patient) and now he has no one. Poor Alex.

I can't wait to watch the first episode of the new season. There will be new faces on the show, new romances, new twists, and new dramas. So if you don't have a reason to stay home on Saturday nights, now you do!

Grey's Anatomy airs every Saturday on NTV7 at 9.45pm.
Private Practice airs every Saturday on NTV7 at 10.45pm.

Two hours of ecstasy!

Didn't We Almost Have it All

"Give me a reason to stay."

Now, if someone asked me that, I would have given her the reason. The only reason that matters.

"You should stay because I want you to stay, and because I love you".

There were so many things that happened last night worth writing about. And just as the words were flowing from my little brain like water trickling down a waterfall, I had an epiphany, or something of that sort.

You know the kind of guy who watches TV alone all the time and blogs about TV shows and even the commercials and has no social life? The kind of guy who eats oatmeal and lives with his cats? That guy is me.

My name is Ardy.

Anyway, in case you missed the show, here are some memorable quotes. Enjoy!

Richard: [narrating] Being Chief... is about responsibility. Every single surgical patient in a hospital is your patient. Whether you're the one who cut them open or not. The scalpel stops with you. You need to be able to look at her family. And to tell them your team did everything they could to save someone's life. The husband, the wife. Taking care about the people's families. And responsibility... it makes you... you take care of the people's families. But you sacrifice your own.

Izzie: You don't need vows on your hand. When you get up there, just speak from the heart.
Cristina: Uh, Izzie, the heart is an organ. It pumps, it circulates blood, it gets clogged from time to time. It does not, however, speak. It doesn't have tiny little lips on it.
Izzie: Well, you're all "glass totally empty."
Cristina: I'm gonna like being married. It's the wedding part that's ridiculous.

Addison: I don't understand.
Richard: It's not you.
Addison: No, I understand that part. What I don't understand is why. I need this job, Richard. I need it more than the others.
Richard: Addison--
Addison: No, I need a reason to stay here. I need a reason to get up in the morning. I need to wake up and not care that it's raining or that I'm 39 and alone. I need the job, Richard.
Richard: That's why. If you need a job to give you a life, you either need a new job or a new life.

Mark: There he is. T-minus five hours. And how's the best man? Up to the challenge? I was an excellent best man.
Derek: You know, the worst case scenario is I sleep with your wife in ten years.
Burke: Okay.

Burke: Um, except about my vows. I wrote them myself, and...I don't know. They may be too...I want 'em to be right.
Addison: Well, let's hear 'em.
Burke: What, now?
Addison: Hey, you've got a room full of women. Try it out on us.
Burke: Cristina...I could promise...to hold you...and to cherish you. I could promise to be there in sickness and in health. I could say...till death do us part. But I won't. Those vows are for...optimistic couples, the ones full of hope. And I do not stand here on my wedding day optimistic or full of hope.
Addison: Okay, um...
Burke: I am not optimistic. I am not hopeful. I am sure. I am steady. And I know. I am a heart man. I take 'em apart. I put 'em back together. I hold them in my hands. I am a heart man. So of this I am sure...you are my partner...my lover...my very best friend. My heart, my heart...beats for you. And on this day, the day of our wedding, I promise you this...I promise you to lay my heart in the palm of your hands. I promise you... me.
What too trite? Because I can rewrite it...
Izzie: No. No. It's...
Addison: I think I speak for...every woman in this room when I say dump her. Dump Yang and marry me.

Izzie: Uh, hold on a minute. I just wanted to make sure no one's around so I can say this.
George: I think we've said everything we need to say.
Izzie: Shut up. I am an optimist. I am hopeful. I am not sure.
George: Look, I can do this myself.
Izzie: Let me speak. Because I'm your best friend and because I love you, if what you want is to be with Callie,.
then I will do everything in my power to support you and help you make your marriage work But because I'm your best friend and because I love you...I also have to say...that I'm in love with you. I'm in love with you. I can't promise the future, I can't promise perfection because we're us and I'm me and who knows what will happen. But in my heart...I am sure. I'm in love with you, George. And I hope you're in love with me, too.

Rebecca: I have every reason to go. And...and yeah, I'm scared. And yeah, this is...this is moving at warp speed. And yeah, I'm freaking out, but Jeff is good. And...and Jeff is the father of my child. The man is out buying a car seat right now. And the minute he gets back...I...I have every reason to go, because medically...
there's no need for me to stay. Medically.
Alex: Oh. Yeah. Okay. Well, then I'll just check the chart.
Rebecca: Damn it.
Alex: We got, uh... what?
Rebecca: Are you...do I...do I have to spell everything out for you? I mean, did...did you sniff too much glue as a child? I'm asking you something here.
Alex: What do you want from me?
Rebecca: I want...I want you to give me a reason to stay...a real reason. I mean, Jeff's...Jeff's a decent guy, a good, decent guy. But to him, I'm Rebecca, and I don't know if I am Rebecca anymore and...you know me. You knew...you knew when I couldn't even speak who I was. You...you named me Ava, and I was more me
as Ava then I'll ever be as Rebecca. Look, I...I have every reason to go back to my life. And I will. Unless...you...Alex, I'm asking you to give me a reason to stay here...a reason from you.
Alex: Jeff loves you. He's A...he's a decent guy.
Rebecca: Alex, give me a reason.
Alex: I think you should stick with the decent guy.

Meredith: If you want to break up with me so you can see other women, just do it. Don't tell me you met another woman. Just end it if that's what you want.
Derek: I can't.
Meredith: Sure you can. Here's how it goes...Meredith, I don't want to see you anymore. Meredith, I don't love you anymore.
Derek: Meredith...I do love you. Don't you see? Don't you understand? You're the love of my life. I can't leave you. But you're constantly leaving me. You walk away when you want, you come back when you want. Not everyone, not your friends, but you leave me. So I'm asking you...if you don't see a future for us, if you aren't in this...please...please just end it, because I can't. I'm in it. Put me out of my misery.
Meredith: I...I can't. I...I...Cristina is getting married. I have to go make sure she gets married.
Derek: Meredith...
Meredith: I really need to make sure she gets down that aisle.
Derek: Let's go. We're running late.

Addison: I've always found it confusing. If you know both the bride and the groom, which side do you sit on?
Alex: I just look for the hottest chick in the room and sit next to her.
Addison: Stop.
Alex: Wanna ditch the reception, grab a drink instead?
Addison: Stop it. You don't want me.
Alex: Maybe I do.
Addison: No, you don't. You want Ava.
Alex: She's not Ava anymore. She's Rebecca now, and I barely know her.
Addison: Look at me. Look at me. You suck. To me, you suck. I kind of...hate you. But, Alex, we not get unlimited chances to have the things we want. And this I know...nothing is worse than missing an opportunity
that could've changed your life. And no matter what her name is, she'll always be Ava to you.

Cristina: Oh...I can do this. You know, I had a momentary freak out, but now I'm fine. I can do this. Go.
Burke: But you don't want to do this. I'm up there waiting for you to come down the aisle, and I knew you don't want to come. I know you don't want to come but that you'll come anyway because you love me. And if I loved you...if I loved you, not the woman that I'm trying to make you be, not the woman that I hope you'll become,
but you...if I did...I wouldn't be up there waiting for you. I would be letting you go.
Cristina: I am wearing the dress. I'm ready. And...and maybe I didn't want to before, but I want to now. I really think I want this.
Burke: And I really wish that you didn't think. I wish that you knew.

Cristina: He's gone.
Meredith: I...I...I don't think he's gone. Uh, his stuff is here.
Cristina: No, it isn't. His trumpet was here. His entire Eugene Foote collection...vinyl's and cd's...his grandmother's picture was by the bed. His lucky scrub cap was hanging on the door. He's gone.
I'm...I'm free. Damn it. Damn it. Damn it. Damn it. Oh, god. Get this off me. Take this off! Take this off!
Please, just...I can't...help me, help me, help me!

Richard: Congratulations. You'll make a fine chief. Derek?
Derek: I'm not the best man for this job. You're the best man for this job.
Richard: What are you talking about, Derek?
Derek: A good chief learns from his mistakes. I'm still working on that. But you...if you had a chance to do it all over again, you'd do it differently. Go ahead. Do it all over again. Be the best man.

Testing 1-2-3

Can you feel it? The end is near. There is only one more episode left for the season. And I will be damned if I miss it next week. You shouldn't too, cause it's going to be a cracker!

Some quotes from this week's episode:

Meredith [narrating]: A surgeon's education never ends. Every patient, every symptom, every operation... is a test. A chance for us to demonstrate how much we know. And how much more we have to learn.

Burke: I was... Going to ask you.
Derek: Ask me what?
Derek: Really?
Burke: We have been through a lot this year.
Derek: And everybody else turned you down. Oh, what do I have to do?
Richard: Well, traditionally the best man plans the bachelor party.
Derek: Drinks at Joe's after work?
Burke: Yeah. I knew you were the man for the job.

Derek: Nice work, Dr. Montgomery.
Addison: Oh, thanks. I was just directing traffic.
Derek: I was being sarcastic.
Addison: Oh, like brain surgery is so impressive.
Derek: It is, actually.

George: I can't stay here. I can't...
Izzie: No one's making you go.
George: Stay here and see you every day... And not...I can't keep kissing you in elevators.
Izzie: I know. I know that.
George: I'm married. I'm a married man.

Richard: You're not to blame for Susan Grey's death, and you know it, and your father knows it, too. He's just...
Well, he's never been the best communicator, and he just lost his wife.
Meredith: Stop acting like my surrogate father.
Richard: Meredith, I'm...just...
Meredith: Because you slept with my mother, that does not make you my father.

George: It's like we're on a train that's going 200 miles an hour, and it would just be so nice to get off and just...stand on the platform, just for a minute.
Meredith: Looks like I'm off the train.
George: Our parents died. When a parent dies, it doesn't make any sense. So you make a lot of really terrible decisions...that you're gonna end up having to live with for a long time.
Meredith: You should go. You are still on the train. It's okay. You have to go. Go. Go. Go, go.

Addison: I am being stalked by pregnant women.
Callie: You're an obstetrician.
Addison: And barren. You know, apparently as a healthy, successful woman in her 30s, I don't deserve to have a baby. Maybe I'd have a fighting chance if were gay or a teenager or a member of the AARP.
Callie: Oh, that sucks. It really...
Addison: No, Oh, no, not you, too.
Callie: Oh, no, no, I'm not. I'm just...I'm thinking about it. That's all. Oh, I don't know. I don't even know. It's just that with George going to Mercy West next year...
Addison: He is?
Callie: Yeah, they have a spot for him, and we need a fresh start. We need to get away from all this crap. It might be a good time.
Addison: It's a great time. Don't let me and my fossilized eggs discourage you.
Callie: Are we gonna be friends still if I get pregnant?
Addison: Absolutely not.

Burke: Hey.
Addison: Hey. This is what you invited me to? This is your big bachelor party?
Derek: It was last-minute. I needed some warm bodies.
Mark: Which would explain why I'm here.
Addison: Why am I the only girl, by the way? What am I, the entertainment? I am not stripping. Derek: That's okay. We've seen it already.
Mark: True.
Burke: I haven't.

Cristina: What the hell am I supposed to do about the stupid vows?
Meredith: You still haven't written anything?
Cristina: Well, it's stupid crap.
Izzie: No, it isn't.
Cristina: Well, what am I supposed to say? I swear to love and cherish you every moment of every day of my life? I mean, that's not real. I mean, that's not how it works, right?
Callie: It does, at first, but then it...
Meredith: It passes.
Izzie: No, it doesn't. You guys are just used to it. That's all. You already have it. You have that thing everybody else wants. You can take it for granted. But let me tell you, if you didn't, if you couldn't be with the person that you love, I guarantee that hearing him promise to love you and honor you and cherish you, no matter what, it would be pretty much all you could think about.
Cristina: Wait, can you say that again, uh, just slowly?
Meredith: You're talking about Denny, right?
Izzie: Yeah.

Woman: Hi.
Derek: Hi.
Woman: Can I buy you a drink?
Derek: You're forward.
Woman: Bad day, I get to be forward today.
Derek: Yeah, I had a bad day, too.
Woman: So what do you say, one drink?
Derek: Um... I'm with some friends. It's a bachelor party. So I'm gonna... I'm gonna say no.
Woman: That's too bad.
Derek: Yeah... maybe you're right.

The other side of this life (part 2)

Some quotes from this week's episode:

Violet: What time do you have?
Naomi: 5 to 1:00.
Addison: You people are obsessed with time.
Violet: Here he comes.
(Dell walks by in only a pair of shorts with his surf board)
Naomi: Hi, Dell.
Violet: Have a nice... surf.
Dell: I'll see you guys after lunch?
Addison: You two should be ashamed of yourselves.
Naomi: Admit it. You feel better.
Violet: And if not, there's another showing in an hour, and it's wet.

Addison: So...you're the quack.
Pete: Uh, I went to med school. I'm also a licensed herbalist, and I spent five years in China learning alternative medicine.
Addison: Like I said... quack.
Pete: Come here. Unless you need to go tell someone you saw goody Johnson with the devil.
Addison: Okay.
Pete: Lie down on the table.
Addison: Why?
Pete: I wanna show you that I'm not a quack.
Addison: I'm not taking my clothes off.
Pete: Did I ask you to take your clothes off? Now...you carry a lot of tension in your shoulders and above your right eye.
Addison: What do you mean?
Pete: You're blocking some serious emotion. Hang on.
Addison: What...what are you doing?
Pete: Stop saying "ow." It doesn't hurt. Okay, I'm done.
Addison: Wait, wait, wait, wait. Where are you going? You can't leave me here like this.
Pete: Lie there. Don't move. Breathe. You're going to experience a rush of emotion, a release of...psychic pain.
Addison: Hello? Hello? I don't feel anything...except stupid for...letting a cute hippie boy put needles in my face. Hello! Yeah, Pete...I...this isn't working. I don't have any...psychic pain. I... I'm great. Barren, but...fan-freakin'-tastic. You can come back now. I am not feeling any, you know, rush of emotion or anything. I don't feel... anything. I don't feel anything at all. I don't feel anything at all. I hate L.A.

Meredith: How's the trailer?
Derek: It's freezing. You want to eat later? I'll bring something over.
Meredith: Are you using me for central heating?
Derek: Among other things.
Meredith: Okay.
Derek: All right.

Violet: You're not healthy. You're in denial.
Pete: I am not in denial.
Violet: You're in denial, and you're angry. You're the angriest man I know.
Pete: Is that why you won't sleep with me?
Violet: You're in denial, you're angry, and you use sex as weapon to deflect it.
Pete: Oh.

Cooper: I don't go to hookers. I don't go to strip clubs. I meet women on the internet that want to meet me.
So I like 'em a little younger and a little dirtier. Is that wrong? It's wrong?
Naomi: You need to meet a grown-up. You need to date someone your own age.
Violet: Someone without a porny internet name and...and perhaps no criminal past.
Naomi: A nice girl.
Violet: A viable girl.
Naomi: Someone with whom you can have a relationship.
Violet: You're a respected doctor.
Naomi: Go out in the real world, meet a woman your own age and ask her out.
Violet: Be a man, cooper. Be a man.

Addison: You're flirting.
Pete: What's wrong with flirting?
Addison: What's wrong with it? What's wrong? What's wrong is that I don't have time for it. I am... out of time. I missed my chance. And now I have two eggs left. I might as well have no eggs left. I am egg-less. Naomi says that she's dried up? I'm the one who's dried up. I'm all barren and dried up. And I have clearly been wasting my time on men. I mean, I might as well take up hobbies, like needlepoint or, um, collecting those little ceramic dolls, you know? Because that's what dried up women do. They do needlepoint. They do not waste their time flirting with men who clearly just want to get laid. They do not waste their time...telling overly personal...information about their eggs to total strangers. Oh, my god. I'm sorry. What are you doing?
Pete: I'm gonna kiss you. I'm gonna kiss you with tongue. I'm gonna kiss you so you feel it. Okay?
Addison: Okay. (They kiss) Why'd you do that?
Pete: To remind you...that you're not dried up. If you need me to remind you again...let me know.
Addison: Okay.

Alex: A lot of folks would kill for what you have, you know? A clean slate. So you don't remember? So what?
You'll make new memories. Oh, wow. Look at that. It's so beautiful.
Jane Doe: How can you be so...You're so good with me. What's wrong with you that you can't be this good with someone you have feelings for? What happened to you, Alex?
Alex: Maybe I don't remember. So what?

Addison: This is gonna sound...when no one else is around, the elevator kind of, uh...Talks to me.
Pete: Hi, Tilly.
Tilly: Hey, Pete.
Pete: That's Tilly. She works security. The camera is right there.
Addison: Oh. Hello, Tilly.
Tilly: Hey, I get my kicks wherever I can.
Pete: You goin' home?
Addison: Yeah...Home.
Pete: You get what you came for?
Addison: I honestly...don't know.
Pete: Do you want me to kiss you again?
Addison: I think...not.
Pete: Because of the elevators where you come from? Those horny, aphrodisiac elevators?
Addison: Yeah, that, and, um...I'm not interested, so...
Pete: Oh. You're interested.

Meredith: [narrating] At some point, maybe we accept that the dream has become a nightmare. We tell ourselves the reality is better. We convince ourselves it's better that we never dream at all. But the strongest of us, the most determined of us, we hold on to the dream. Or we find ourselves faced with a fresh dream we never considered. We awake to find ourselves...Against all odds...Feeling hopeful. And if we're lucky, we realize...In the face of everything, in the face of life...The true dream...Is being able to dream at all.

The other side of this life (part 1)

Tell me you're excited. Tell me you can't wait to catch Kate Walsh in her new spin-off. Tell me you're already in love with her new show. Tell me that you think the new casts are simply awesome.

And I'll tell you - indeed!!

If you happened to catch yesterday's episode of Grey's Anatomy(also the pilot for the new show), and if you have not heard about it, Kate Walsh aka Dr. Addison Montgomery will be heading to Santa Monica, to seek a better and greener pastures, and to start anew. She'll be heading the cast of Private Practice, a spin-off from Grey's Anatomy, where the new show will focus more on a consortium of sexy, not-getting-younger medical careerists in Santa Monica. The cast list is impressive, with Paul Adelstein (of Prison Break), Tim Daly, Amy Brenneman (of Judging Amy), Audra Mcdonald, Chris Lowell and the ever-so-sexy Taye Diggs. Private Practice is only starting in the States end of this month, so I guess we still have a long wait until it reaches our shores. Well, at least it's something to look forward to.

Some quotes from this week's episode:

Meredith: [narrating] The dream is this - that we'll finally be happy when we reach our goals - find the guy, finish our internship, that's the dream. Then we get there. And if we're human, we immediately start dreaming of something else. Because, if this is the dream, then we'd like to wake up. Now, please!

Mark: Anybody seen Addison?
Richard: She's gone.
Mark: Gone?
Richard: She took a leave of absence.
Mark: Why? I mean, did she tell you why?
Derek: What'd you do to her, Mark?
Richard: She didn't give a reason.
Mark: Did she tell you where she was going?
Richard: All she said was she needed some time...to be happy and free if I recall correctly. Excuse me.

Izzie: I switched my hours at the clinic so I can go to the bridal shop. Yay!
Cristina: Did she cheer? She just cheered.
Izzie: Someone's not being very bridey.
Cristina: I am not a bride. I am a surgeon.
Meredith: Don't tease the caged animal.
Izzie: You're not excited? I'm excited. I love weddings. Weddings are all about hope and the future.

Sam: Ow.
Addison: Idiot. You divorced Naomi?
Sam: Look, just mind your own business, ok...ouch.
Addison: Moron. She is my best friend.
Sam: Stop hitting me on top of my head.
Addison: Did you cheat? Did...
Sam: Ok, two things I learned way back in kindergarten...one, keep your hands to yourself, two, he who smelt it dealt it.
Addison: That makes no sense.
Sam: Yeah. Well...you cheated. You cheated on your husband with his best friend. There. Smelt it, dealt
it...it works.
Addison: You're using fart logic.

Paul: I guess I'm just not very sexual.
Kathy: He's having an affair. He's not in love with me anymore.
Paul: That's not true, honey. I love you. I love you so much. I...I want to do it. I just want to want to do it.
Violet: Ok, Paul, I'm gonna give you some homework for next session.
Paul: Homework?
Violet: Have sex with your wife.
Kathy: Yay!
Paul: Well, but...
Violet: No matter what. Whether you're in the mood or not, have sex. Do it in the bed, do it on the kitchen floor. Do you have a pool?
Paul: Yes.
Violet: Okay, do it in the pool. Have sex. No pressure, no judgment, no expectations. Have sex. Just...do it.

Mark: What's in L.A.?
Derek: What?
Mark: For Addison. Any idea...what she might be doing there?
Derek: Naomi and Sam are down there, I guess. I don't know. You all right?
Mark: We were gonna try. We were gonna make a go of it... as a couple. She bet me I couldn't go 60 days without having sex.
Derek: Oh. Let me guess. You couldn't do it.
Mark: No, she couldn't. She didn't want to be with me. I thought she did. I thought she might. But she didn't. And I caught her. You know...
Derek: Sleeping with somebody else? Oh, that must have been so hard for you. Not that I can't relate.
Mark: So I told her I did it.
Derek: You told her you did it?
Mark: I told her I lost the bet. I told her I slept with someone. I figured if she didn't want to be with
me, she shouldn't have to feel guilty about it.
Derek: Selfless. That's...out of character.
Mark: Yeah. Anyway, uh... I was just wondering if you knew what was in L.A.
Derek: No.

Addison: I have the great guy. I don't have a baby because I'm focusing on my career. And then I have the other guy. I don't have his baby because he's not the great guy. And now I don't have the great guy or the other guy, and I'm finally ready to have a baby, and I can't. That is so... exactly what my life is. Exactly what my life is.
Naomi: I'm so sorry. I know how much you wanted this.
Addison: It's okay. I just, um... I just didn't realize I was out of time, that's all.

Desire

Quotes from this week's episode:

Meredith: [narrating] As interns we know what we want...to become surgeons. And will do anything to get there... Suffer through killer exams, endure 100-hour weeks, stand for hours on end operating rooms. You name it we'll do it. The tough part though is reconciling this huge thing we want, to be surgeons, with everything else we want.

Celeste: It's not what you think. I mean it is...it's...it's just not an affair. Though I guess, technically it is. We're in love. The kind of love you think you're never gonna find and then you do and the fact that he's married seems a small price to pay for being happy, you know? At least most of the time but then five years go by and he still hasn't left his wife...you must think I'm a terrible person.
Addison and George: No, no, no.
Addison: No judgment whatsoever.
Celeste: I mean, I know, I should leave him, it's just...do you have any idea how rare it is to find someone you can work and play with. And we love each other. How wrong can it be?

Bailey: I know, I said you could use the day to study but we've got an all hands on deck situation.
Cristina: A bad car accident?
Meredith: Multiple gunshot wounds?
Bailey: A penis, Chairman of the board's penis.
Meredith: What's wrong with it?
Bailey: His testicles have swollen which is the understatement of the year.
Cristina: Fantastic how much? No, don't tell me. Let it be a surprise.
Bailey: Look, you and Grey can take him for his ultrasound and his x-rays.
Cristina: The VI Penis.

Callie: Right. So how's your man whore? Miraculously reformed?
Addison: For now. He's never going to turn into what I want.
Callie: Which is.
Addison: The whole thing. I want someone stable who barbeques and teaches little kids how to play catch. And is not Mark Sloan. Which doesn't explain why I've spent the entire day looking at Alex Karev like a puppy and a chew toy.
Callie: Why don't you just go there already?
Addison: Because! He doesn't barbeque either. Plus, he's like twelve years old and can fit all of his belongings in a milk crate.
Callie: I don't know. Guys like Karev...at least you know, he'll never lie to you. Guys like him, they mess around in their twenties but then they, you know, pack it in and teach their kids to play catch.
Addison: Maybe. I need to stop thinking about both of them.

Meredith: Talk about divine retribution.
Izzie: What?
Meredith: He sleeps with his assistant and a carnivorous fish lodges itself in his penis. That's instant karma if I've ever seen it.
Cristina: Yeah, well Derek wasn't struck by lightning and neither were you.
Meredith: Addison showed up. I had months of pain and self-loathing, Crazy ranting mother and a near drowning off the side of a dock. I mean, it's not fish in my hoo-hoo but it's certainly not an easy ride.
Cristina: Yeah, well, I've cheated on my boyfriends and I'm fine. Am I the only one?

George: What's your problem?
Izzie: My problem...is you. You're my penis fish.
George: Your what?
Izzie: You've crawled in and latched on and now I can't move or talk or think or even pee without the nagging feeling that something is eating through my organs.
George: You don't even have a penis. How am I the fish?
Izzie: It's a metaphor, George.
George: What happened to us being fine?
Izzie: I don't know. Maybe we're not.

Alex: It's always a nice bonus when the patient doesn't die.
Jane Doe: You and red make a pretty good team.
Alex: Don't tell Sloan.
Jane Doe: Oh, she and Sloan aren't happening. She wants you.
Alex: How do you know that?
Jane Doe: I know everything remember. Heard her talking to the ortho doc about how she wants someone who barbeques and plays catch. She wants someone who's committed.
Alex: Yeah, well, that's not me.
Jane Doe: I hate to tell you this, but it is. You may talk tough but you're a decent guy, Alex. Whether you want to admit it or not, you're actually one of the good ones.

George: Mrs. Jennings, your husband's out of surgery. Everything went very well.
Nancy: Oh...oh thank you. Thank you. That's...that's wonderful. The doctor will be down to fill you in soon. Dr. O'Malley, do me a favor. Could you go tell Celeste? She's a basket case and I just don't have it in me to take care of my husband's girlfriend right now. (George looks shocked) Of course I know. The wife always knows.

Addison: Mark, we need to um...we should go get a drink...and maybe talk. Do you have some time? I just...something's always wrong...with you and me.
Mark: You don't wanna have a drink with me. I'm not what you're looking for.
Addison: What are you talking about?
Mark: I slept with someone, couldn't hold out. Once a man-whore, always a man-whore, right?

Meredith: [narrating] To often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can't have. Desire leaves us heartbroken; it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. But as tough as wanting something can be...the people who suffer the most...are those who don't know what they want.

Time after time

Quotes from this week's episode:



Meredith: [narrating] A patient's history is as important as their symptoms. It's what helps us decide if heart burn's a heart attack... if a headache's a tumor. Sometimes patients will try to re-write their own histories. They'll claim they don't smoke, or forget to mention certain drugs... which in surgery can be the kiss of death. We can ignore it all we want, but our history eventually always comes back to haunt us.

Woman: Nice sweater.
Richard: Yeah...my wife...
Woman: What?
Richard: My wife, she gave it to me...the sweater. Actually, it's my ex-wife. It's amicable.
Woman: I'm sorry?
Richard: The divorce, it's amicable. Very friendly. I'm a friendly guy.
(The woman and another passenger get out leaving Mark and Richard alone)
Mark: I'm a friendly guy?
Richard: Sloan!
Mark: She pressed five and got off at three. She'd rather walk up two flights of stairs then flirt with you. Hell, she'd rather climb up the outside of the building.
Richard: I wasn't flirting.
Mark: You're telling me. There's no need to be embarrassed. It's time for you to shake off the rust and get back in the game. You need a wing man.
Richard: I have patients to see.
(He gets out of the elevator)
Mark: We'd make a great team.

Meredith: So, it's weird, right? That Susan keeps stopping by like this? I mean, we just became friends or semi-related or whatever you call your estranged father's wife.
Alex: You may be confused since you were basically raised by wolves but this is what mother's do. They stop by, they stock the fridge. Dude, you think she might do our laundry?
Meredith: Hey! Get your own fake mom.

Burke: What was that?
Cristina: That was my smug, passive-aggressive whiny ex-boyfriend trying to show me I picked the wrong guy.
Burke: Oh, I know. I'm fine with it as long as I'm learning something. I was actually talking about you. What was that?
Cristina: You're gonna have to put up with me being nice and sweet for a little while.
Burke: That'll be a nice change of pace.
Cristina: Shut up.
Burke: That's more like it.

Derek: Hey.
Meredith: Hey.
Derek: You ok?
Meredith: Horrible...I'm in a horrible mood. I yelled at Susan. I think I scared off my fake mommy forever.
Derek: Hmm...need cheering up?
Meredith: No.
Derek: Me either. It's gonna be ok.

Izzie: Wow. That's a big needle.
Doctor: It's standard. You should start to feel numb about ten minutes after I inject the lidocaine, ok?
Izzie: Yeah, I know. I've given epidurals before. I know that's the needle. It's just that somehow it seems so much bigger now that it's going into my spine.
Doctor: Little stick.
Izzie: Oh, god.

Richard: Sloan, you brought me to a bar. You know I don't drink.
Mark: Which is perfect. Better to keep you mind sharp. Let the ladies do the drinking.
Richard: You think if you get me laid, I might make you chief.

Meredith: [narrating] Some people believe that without history, our lives amount to nothing. At some point we all have to choose: do we fall back on what we know, or do we step forward to something new? It's hard not to be haunted by our past. Our history is what shapes us... what guides us. Our history resurfaces time after time after time. So we have to remember sometimes the most important history is the history we're making today.

Every moment counts

Yesterday's episode was a quick summary of some of the important details from all the previous episodes for season 3, some sort of a recap show. It was good to see it in a different perspective.

But what really touched me was the song at the end of the show, and I would like to share the words with you. This is for you, who has always been a good friend to me, and always there when I am in need of a friend.

"Life is too short to dwell on lost love.. gotta open ourselves to new love and create new life, new story.."

The Story - Brandi Carlile

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you

I climbed across the mountain tops
Swam all across the ocean blue
I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules
But baby I broke them all for you
Because even when I was flat broke
You made me feel like a million bucks
Yeah you do and I was made for you

You see the smile that's on my mouth
Is hiding the words that don't come out
And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed
They don't know my head is a mess
No, they don't know who I really am
And they don't know what I've been through but you do
And I was made for you...

My favourite mistake

Quotes from this week's episode:




Meredith: [narrating] The thing about plans is they don't take into account the unexpected, so when we're thrown a curve ball, whether its in the O.R. or in life, we have to improvise. Of course, some of us are better at it than others. Some of us just have to move on to plan B, and make the best of it. And sometimes what we want is exactly what we need. But sometimes, sometimes what we need is a new plan.

Izzie: Hours. Hours of our life that are all I can think about and you seriously can't remember?
George: Look, Izzie, I was drunk. Whatever I did, whatever I said, I'm sure I didn't mean it.
Izzie: Yes, George, you meant it. You meant it a lot. You meant it more than once.

Mark: Don't wear the glasses. You fiddle with them, it makes you look indecisive. And stop stressing, it will be like any other job interview. What do you consider your strengths? What do you consider your weaknesses? What do you consider your weaknesses?
Addison: I don't have any. I'm that good. What are yours?
Mark: I'm an easy mark for evil redheads.
Addison: Trust me, you have other weaknesses. Obviously, you are a man-whore.
Mark: Correction, I was a man-whore.
Addison: Yeah, well, while you're bragging about that to the board, Colin Marlow is pitching his ten-year plan.
Mark: Ten-year plan? Is that a requirement?
Addison: It is now.

Addison: Is...is that a...?
Izzie: Dollhouse. Yeah, the lights work and everything, it's the perfect little home.
Addison: Did you have a dollhouse growing up?
Izzie: I had sex last night...with the wrong person. But the thing is it didn't feel wrong at the time. It felt like everything was falling into place. So, what do I do?
Addison: What am I? The go-to person for adultery?
Izzie: No...no...I just...I just don't know what to do.
Addison: You stop, that's what you do.
Izzie: Are you sure? How do you know, that it feels so right because it's gods plan?
Addison: God wants you to be an adulterer?
Izzie: God got a virgin pregnant by magic. God is not playing by the rules.

Nina: I should have brought her in sooner. The first time she threw up. I knew better.
Callie: Nina, there was nothing any of us could...
Nina: No. It was a mistake.
Izzie: Your mother...talked to me. She wasn't ready to leave you but she was ready to leave her body.
Nina: Please, I don't need you to explain the relative comforts of death for my mother.
Izzie: What she was afraid of was that you had taken on so much of her disease that you had frozen up to. You spent so much time planning and helping her avoid risk, god knows that's what you should have been doing, but she was worried...You have a healthy body, Nina. If you fall down you won't turn to stone and you're mom so wanted you to fall. Messing up is what makes a person. It's how you learn, where you find joy in the things you don't plan for. The things you never see coming.

Meredith: How was your interview?
Derek: Not great. It wasn't great. I was distracted.
Meredith: By what?
Derek: Nothing. I don't know.
Meredith: On a scale of 1 to 10 how bad is it?
Derek: Eight.
Meredith: [kisses him] How about now?
Derek: Seven.
Meredith: [kisses him] How about now?
Derek: Six... five... four... three...

Scars and souvenirs

Quotes from this week's episode:



Meredith: [narrating] People have scars. In all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret roadmaps of their personal histories. Diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar. But some of them don't. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere and though the cut's long gone, the pain still lingers.

Izzie: Alex is moving in?! To this house?!
Meredith: He's taking George's room.
Izzie: Why?
Derek: I was asleep just a minute ago.
Izzie: Uh? And I was naked - in the bathroom - when Alex walked in. I'm lucky I didn't come out of the shower to see him peeing all over the seat.

Izzie: You guys seen Bailey? What are we doing?
George: Uh, checking out the new Chief candidate.
Meredith: The Chief sent in a ringer. We're lurking in a way that subtle when there was two of us, but isn't now that it's 12.
Cristina: I heard it was someone from Stanford. All the professors there loved me.
Alex: They loved you?
Cristina: I was a great student.

Cristina: Move, move, move.
George: She doesn't like it when people ask.
Cristina: The ringer's in there with the Chief.
Izzie: Yeah, and whoever it is loves Cristina, because everyone at Stanford just loved Cristina.
Cristina: Shut up.

Cristina: He was my professor, we were close.
Meredith: He had his hand on your ass, I sure hope you were close!

George: C'mon! She's Izzie! She's blonde. She's stacked. She's a supermodel. And I'm... I mean, I'm George.
Callie: [pauses] So what does that make me?

Izzie: You need to bond with your people. People are what matters.
Meredith: I hate people.

Meredith: [narrating] What's worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should've healed years ago and never did? Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we've been and what we've overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That's what we like to think. But that's not the way it is, is it? Some things we just have to learn over and over and over again.

Some kind of miracle

Intense, totally intense. With Meredith's life hanging on the brink, the whole staffs tried their best to revive her. But Mer was already in the afterlife, getting reacquainted with fellow death mates Denny, Dylan, Bonnie, her mother's ex-nurse and of course, Doc, her beloved dog. And she had to face the realisation that she was actually happy to be dead. But of course, the ever-so-noble Denny, woke her up from her delusions.

Meredith: I was swimming. I was fighting. Then I thought, just for a second, I thought ‘What’s the point?’ And then I let go. I stopped fighting. Don’t tell anybody.

Denny: Okay.

Meredith: What?

Denny: Izzie.

Meredith: You can see her?

Denny: No. Sometimes we’d be at the same place at exactly the same time and I can almost hear her voice. It’s like I’m touching her. I like to believe she knows I’m there. That’s all you get. That’s it. Moments with the people you love. And they’ll move on and you’ll want them to move on. But still, Meredith, that’s all you get. Moments.

Denny: Do you know what kind of miracle it is that Derek is who he is? Do you know how rare it is that someone like him even exists? He's still an optimist! He still believes in true love and magic and soulmates. He's waiting for you. And if you don't come back from this, you will change who he is.

Meredith: You watch me take a bath?

Denny: I don't watch women in the tub. I wish I could watch women... We know things,okay

Addison: [watching Derek] We never had that. He never felt that way about me.

Mark: I did.

Addison: You know, sometimes I think what a waste it is to throw away all that history.

Mark: I'm a flawed and I'm a... a wreck, but you... it wasn't a game.

Addison: 60 days. Go 60 days with no sex, no other women. You go 60 days cold turkey and maybe... I'll believe you.

Mark: So I only have sex with you?

Addison: No. No sex with anyone. Grow up Mark. Find another way to scratch the itch.

Mark: Say I do , you'll give us another try. A real try, the couple thing, no sneaking around, no booty calls.

Addison: If you make it. Yes.

Mark: Okay. We're on. Oh, and Addison, if I'm not having sex, neither are you.

Addison: Who would I possibly be having sex with?

Meredith: [narrating] At the end of a day like this, when so many prayers are answered and so many aren’t, we take our miracles where we find them. We reach across the gap and sometimes, against all odds, against all logic, we touch.

Drowning on dry land

Some quotes from this week's episode:

Meredith: [narrating] Like I said, disappearances happen. Pains go phantom. Blood stops running and people, people fade away. There's more I have to say, so much more, but... I disappeared.

George: Do you know how massive this hospital is? How people - not just sick people - not to mention if I'm a little kid, how places can I hide? He's little. He's... a little kid can hide anywhere.

Alex: You're lookin' for a kid?

George: Yeah. His mom's in surgery and if I don't find this kid Bailey is going to change her son's middle name to Elvis or Tupperware... anything will be better than George.

Alex: I know where a kid might be.

George: Really?

Izzie: I'm gonna need a drill.

Friend: I got one in my trunk.

Other friend: What do you need a drill for?

Izzie: I gotta drill holes in your friend's head.

Alex: I would notice.

Addison: What?

Alex: I would notice...if you were missing, I would notice.

Izzie: People die in front of us everyday. But I believe Meredith will survive this. I believe, I believe, I... I believe in the good. I believe that it's been a hell of a year and I believe that, in the face of overwhelming evidence to the contrary, that we will be okay. I believe a lot of things. I believe that... I believe that Denny is always with me... and I believe that if I eat a tub of butter and no one sees, that the calories don't count. And I believe that surgeons who prefer staples over stitches are just lazy. And I believe that you are a man that made a terrible mistake marrying Callie and I believe that because I'm your best friend I can tell you this and we can be okay. I believe that even though you made this mistake you will be okay. I believe we survive, George. I believe that believing we survive... is what makes us survive.

Walk on water

Some quotes from this week's episode:

Meredith : I did not try to drown myself in the bathtub ...

Izzie : Hey ... I ate everything out of the refrigerator last night, everything, including a tub of butter. There is no judgement here.

Christina: Meredith, I have a thing.. news..

Meredith: You aren't pregnant again, aren't you? Because I can't handle the extra months of bitchiness.

Izzie: What kind of situation? Fire? Flood? Volcano? Because I'm not really dressed for a volcano.

Alex: [to patient] Hey. I'm not going to be able to make it to your surgery. Here's the thing. You were crushed underneath a cement pylon. Dozens of people on that ferry boat died, but you're still alive. So when I come back to check on you after the surgery, you better still be alive. All right? You hear me? Alright.

Richard: What’s the news?

Mark: Shepherd and Grey are on the rocks, Burke and Yang got engaged... You need highlights. In your hair, that’s why it looks so odd.

Richard: [stares blankly]

Mark: [smiles] I’m gonna go save lives!

Callie: Okay, I'm not trying to... take the clinic. Bailey's clinic, by the way. I'm offering to help.

Sydney: Your offer to help is duly noted and very much appreciated, but I promise you, got it all under control. So, Jason Kay?

Callie: Fine! I'll leave you to it and find myself a recently traumatized emergency surgery to scrub in on, while you stay down here with your sore throat and your sprain and oh... what was it, what was it?

Sydney: Tummyache.

Callie: Ooh.